Daybreak

Daybreak is very nice view.I am accustomed to jogging in the morning so that like to see it.Espically in beach. every morning about at am6:10 in Shenzhen.I can see nice view: it will be remember in your heart.First all skye was darkness, one or two stars in there,all the world be covered by darkness. I always associate past things with the darkness sky.so feel sadly ,but only one or two minutes it start to get a few light ,no sun and don't know it come from where.then the sky appear low light ,as everyone lie in in diffculty--sadly,couldn't see hope,blue.....only some minutes the sky start to more light and see sun ,gold,warm,with power,it break through one barrier after another : black cloudy, skyline,like a strong guy jump out of danger. so it as like our life.We will meet many more difficulty in our life.For example:this year crisis all the world.Many of us lost or couldn't look for a job in a long time.Dear friends,movn on,tell to ourselves"I believe I can,just need more times and patient,although we are no job now,but we dont' give up to study and pay attention to family or friends!we need a piece of brave heart.God ,please give it to us!"I hope I can meet you in the world and wish to go beach to see the daybreak.Every one needs a psychical friend together to across which hard time .Don't be shy !please speak your story and your feeling to your good friends.

PS:The daybreak picture were taken by me last week on beach.

About Music

At last I can download music in blog, because my IT knowledge is very poor, I had tried many ways to download music. Imust made wrong operation so that the music couldn’t be online to play.They can listen gentle music as soon as open my blog …….Music can express delicate feelings .Every one love music ,his/her life would get more colours.Oneday at night You are in a state of deep depression on account of your life or your working or your feeling . you maybe hold back tears in your heart ,this moment,music could comfort you ,as child needs a mother’s care
Dear Friends let us hug music to play music box listening it. let us hug music.
In my memory , The most difficult do be cry instead cant’ cry whild feeling sadly. Only music can release feeling .

PS: The lady is myself for jogging in the morning on beach.but the nice dog don't belong to me only meet it on the way.

Looking Back the Past Years (part 6)

There was a old and heavy bicycle in father's timber mill .Sister and I went to there to ride the bicycle. The bicycle was belong to factory,they would ride it when worker went out for town . Children were curious it in 1980s.Only few rich family had got it .Need get ticket of govement Father was accountant so that he often ride it to go out for working.

Sister and I went to mill after school to study how to riding it. First sister studied it whild I buttressed bicycle at back.(Seven-year-old sister more than me) .So I only learned to ride it after sister had learned well it.About one week,She can ride it around town here and there whild she took me in bicycle's back.I feel the view to move so nice while I sat in bicycle's back and same time I was so scared for Swing-shake .One time sister hited a young man at turning because no time to brake.He got very angry and asked us to call my father to apologize for him.Sister saw it then crying .She was a little girl after,,,,,,,,

Looking Back the Past Years (part 5)

Mum joined in a canework factory.She studied how to make cane: canechair.canesofa.cane-tea table.canebasket.......for my hometow lies to mountain,cane plants growing vigorously here and there Every day peasant carried wild cirrus to canework factory for selling .They would make some money to change vital commodity lard salt match.The cirrus were immerge by water in pool 2~4days then mum would fish it out ,use a small knife in half it then put it air-dry on platfrom .

Mum's father went to Malaysia early.and Mum's mother died early,She still lived with stepmother untill 18ages.Her job was a hardwork.She must work about 12hours everyday in factory .the factory room was hot in summer with foul smell from cirrus pool.One day her colleague would go to Shaihai.Mum ask her to take a pair shoes for me.(Mum would pay it off when she came back. )that time best goods all made in Shaihai.that times every one would proud of Shaihai make goods.For example sewing machine, watch, leather shoes ,sweetmeat.......

I liked drawing picture of watch on my wrist I used to do it with father's pen and liked to show it to my classmate.After one month mum's colleague came back Shaihai and took me a pair of purple leather shoes and same time she took one plastic watch for me .The watch time hand and minute hand neve moved ,only a decorate.Shoes cost mum 28RMB(USD4.05),almost over one salary of mum.Father would scold her when he knew it.because every one cent was planed in that time.I dressed my new leather shoes to sleep and refuse to take it off .then I dress it into my dream.......

Looking Back the Past Years (part 4)

Our family move in town from a village for grandfather re-marriage and second year birth a son--myuncle.Step-grandmother didn't like live with us: too many kids ,she thought to get grandfather salary for her new family.Before grandfather often bought lard ,a little sugar,or a litter snack to us,even we had a cold,he went out for getting medicine.it would cost him some money.the family start to separate for step-grandmother coming.

Mum did some odd jobs in town .Father got a job accounting Staff in timber mill .The salary was low in during the planned economy years.everyone wanted to buy meat ,sugar,rice,flour,lard,match,cloth,all of them need tickets of government's.So father and mum frequently went to hill to chop wood and took brothers together.Father always got some fat meat of pig from a friend of leather worker's then took it back to fried .At night the kitchen was full of nice taste--lard taste! every morning mum would mixed it into hot rice , adding up a little of black soy.Another dish was pickled vegetables.(it were made of mustard leaf .every winter mum would do many it and put into salt water vat. It would cut down family's expenditures )It was a best foods for kids that time.

In autumn,sometimes Father must stay in timber mill to vigil ,thieves frequently stolen wood from timber mill.The timber mill factory manager called for employee to vigil at night. Father always took me to here.At night we need wake up many times to look around wood filed.I listened voice of frogs,dogs ....Father cooked noodles to eat when we came back.The sky was darkness while I looked at my father's face :full of love and responsibility to family in poor light.

In fact parents always quarreled for money because the total income was low as well many things need money to do with .This time real life had to give way to actuality.----kids coundn't go to school,partents would accept it and same time no more energy pay attention of want of kids. complicated society environment .They feel tired , numb,passive .......them choosing silence , smoking, drinking a few cheap rice wine to release pressure .He like football but never play it .So many of the time We have to choose to go away and Compromise under Life pressure ,for we think it maybe let ourselves feeling better.Confrontation need courage and family support each other. In the end many of us gave up our dream ! Until one day it always appears in dream ! Once let it fly out your life,You never get ture happy.Life is a process ,we compete with wisdom ,patience,willpower and past yourself in life. No matter who......

In spring father sent some woods to a Pencil Factory of Nanjing's.He told me he would come back in 15days.So that I were waiting for him in that days coming.I rushed out classroom for I knew today he would come back and would bought many pencils to me.I ran quick....... "dad ,dad...."only saw mum cooked foods no saw my father......Every day I did it same .No telephone ,No fax and dad didn't sent even one telegram to family . Let me wait him 7days everyday I as that rush out classroom and run crazy in street.Waiting for someone is a happy thing in life.........In the end father took many pencils to me,especially another one was scarf with seven style color. Up to now I still remember it and more and more clearly in memory.

Father had whiskers ,about 2~3days he shaved off his beard standing in front of mirror,for he was thin and high (174cm)and mum or kids were dwarf .We had put the mirror at low place .He have to bending his body to do it.I liked looking to do it and very curious ,for last day I saw father shaved off pig hairs and the pig skins were cooked by mum...........

PS: The girl in picture is my landlord's daughter and the scarf is mine.now we live in one flat together.she looks like me in my childhood with black skin and friendly ,actively.

Looking Back the Past Years (part 3)

Mother got marriage with father in her 18ages. She came from other far away a village. she spent all childhood and young in a village ,cultivate the land all day and all night. Have four kids,we were naughty in childhood and teen-agers times for our naughty let mum and father fierce wrangled.She even went back her hometown after some days .Mum came back our family with in silence to cook foods for kids in kitchen.Mother love me more than brothers and sister .I were most young in kids.She frequently made new clothes and trousers for kids at night before the coming china new year.I were insteresting in standing beside to look at sew machine .Mum sew it intent with hard moving pedal "kluck ....kluck....kluck....".Up to now I often listen it in dream. ---Far away,clearly,warm and fragrant .........

Traditional festival :Spring Festival is first important day. Every chirldren hopes it coming,for in that days,We will put on new clothes ,shoes,and get cash money for parents or relative. and same time all of money were encased by a piece of red paper).Kids opened it in excitedly as soon as get it then running out to buy firecrackers .

No others toys ,No TV,No radio,No newspaper,only a few old pictures books . In that times,We had dinner ,mum did off all houseworks .kids only went to sleep in a low light (lamp bulb is 15w,so kids must did all lessons before dark) I usually made of wood bench by myself or boxes to put my little things.

I espically liked to collect different sweet wrappers while I came home from school,first time went to laystall or street to find it then leveling it inside books pages ,if I had got same two piece pictures in my hands.It is best happyness things for me,because I could use it to change foods from others kids ,if he/she wanted to get it too.I would like to look at before Cover up with my quilt.the picture on sweet wrapper were very nice "mouse,monkey,fairy,shu wukong , flowers, cute little girl......."then I came in to my nice dream to meet them.one day in the morning I didn't see my sweer wrapper photo album on the table,and sister ,brothers both said no seeing it.I went on a hunger strike and cried all day.In the end father found truth then useing a big piece of cane lambaste my brother at night.-----He stolen it by stealth then change five marbles from his friends. Up to now I like cartoon very much.They went through whole my childhood until now effecting world of recognizant !


PS: The girl is my landlord's daughter.I took it last week because my childhood photoes left hometown and she looks like me very much .

Looking Back the Past Years (part 2)

The egg is first important foods in Chinese people living in 1960s~1980s.especially in my hometown.If one mother birth kid,when baby has one month,the mother must cook many boiled eggs,at same time the eggs are staining with red color .(Red color is a luck color in our hometown.)then sent out to neighbour:every family will get two eggs in hand.and they will say many benedictory words to the baby.baby's grandmother must buy many baby's clothes and hens to baby's mother.I was so happy to wait the thing coming in my childhood,in that time ,no any snack in family except rice,pickle .First time saw and ate apple in my 11ages.every school beginning of term after summer / winter vacation ,Children must come back school to study,children will get many eggs for par tens cook .children will tell par tens that they like which type eggs: boiled eggs or poached eggs (fried egg ).Eggs were expensive and lack in 1970s~1980s.but no mind,because childhood started new term so every par tens would fulfil wish of kids-----so loud to tell them,I want to eat how many eggs,so every time,My mother listened it and replay"really,eight eggs?"mum said again,"yes,mum,and I want eight eggs are fried and must fried to golden yellow ",I answered ,my tone was perky.because I knew it was a nice chance to eat eggs,and clearly knew next time to meet eggs it is a long time waiting for me and sister.so can't miss this nice chance."yes.mum eight eggs,I promise I will eat it up. " Do you know eat eggs number must be even number for it will be luckily number in China.and hate number"four,seven" ,four means "died",seven means "go away".so I thought two eggs too few ,four can't be,six are just right,but if eight eggs best choose for me in my innocent kid minds.mum cooked it and put on table ,she always said benedictory words the other picking up it with chopsticks to my bowl--two eggs means my examination results would get "100"in the future,so if I ate eight eggs,it will get "100000000",oh,mum,thanks!Today,I never went to which one university or doing one nice successful career women .I hope you forgive me and eggs ? last year,I come back hometown to see you when I went back to Shenzhen for working,you got up early in the morning to cook boiled eggs (for high blood pressure your left hand don't move freely,so didn't cook fried egg).The bus was crossing many mountain while my tears running down my face on the way........mum . I love you!